A little down time. Everyone needs it. I stole a lot of me time last night. My week was long and exhausting, for no particular reason. It was everything rolled up in one huge bundle. I’m trying so hard not to crash and burn. However, I think it’s inevitable. Sooner or later it will catch up to me.
My animals are starting to feel the impact of my depression. They seem to console me at times. They seem to be closer to me than before. My lap is always full of love. We’re watching some TV here. I thank God for my special little friends!
I’ve been having to feed, clean stalls, mow the grounds, shop for feed and hay all on my own. Most of it, ‘after’, I get off from an 8-10 hour day at work. I thought it would be a breeze for me to keep up with the demand of having two horses, three dogs, a cat and one small parakeet. How ever, I forgot to calculate everything else that needs to be done in between. Such as: Shopping for groceries. Cleaning house and paying bills. Did I forget to mention, sleep? I’ve had to take the vehicles in to the dealership for oil changes and maintenance. You know, ‘the usual stuff that contributes to our daily lives’! No big deal, right? Maybe for a younger solitary individual. It just wasn’t working for me. I’m heading for the big 6-0 shortly after the New Year and I’m already feeling overwhelmed with most of the up-keep on this place.
I thought long and hard over my predicament. My survival skills have kicked in and decided it was time to let my old horse go. ‘Sad, I know’. Since I can only ride one and he’s getting to old to teach him anything. He’s is the ultimate Cadillac for trail riding. But, I had to make a choice. It’s either Handsome or Jewels. She ain’t going! I’ve come to love her like a partner. I stumbled accidentally on a family that wanted a horse for their teenager. She’s new to riding and their other girls have horses of their own. I thought this was the perfect opportunity for him to have his very own girl to love again. They are a large family of 16. The mother and father and 14 children. Seven still at home. All of them, adopted. They have 105 acres of land near Sulphur Springs, Texas. They came and got him on Monday. It was a sad day here on the home front and I could hardly breathe loading him onto their trailer.
As I watched them drive away. I remembered the day, I, got my first horse. It was a life changer for me. And, it’s been a bigger than life addiction and my passion since that very first day. Thank you, Mom! I must have cried for hours. My head was about to explode. On the day before. I took Jewels to a boarding facility. “Debi Jones Performance Horses”. It’s a really nice place. It has an indoor arena, a hot-walker, and a round pen. I also take riding lessons there on Mondays. The woman who runs the business, is the one who encouraged me to ride Jewels last year, after that riding accident the year before. To top it all off, the barn is full of beautiful show horses. The best thing about it? I don’t have to care for her on a daily basis. Instead, I can actually go out there in the evenings 4-5 times a week . I’ll be able to enjoy her more.
My goal” is to train her for ‘APHA Shows’. I’m looking forward to a long relationship with my new life partner. In our new environment. We both feel like Diva’s!! Jewels actually looks the part.
Monday, for the next 10 weeks. I’m taking riding lessons! I can’t tell you how excited I am to learn something new. I’m not sure where this is going to take me. There are so many things I’d like to try with Jewels. She’s has an exceptional ability to grasp things quickly. Much more than any other horse I’ve trained to do a job. As long, as you take the time to break it down for her in pieces. She absorbs it like a sponge. Never forgetting what she’s learned.
Today, Jewels and I worked on a slow and collected trot. She gets a little heavy on the forehand and I wasn’t quite sure how to break the old habits she’s acquired. Hopefully, the trainer will shed some light on my mistakes. The trainer asked that I lower my hands and see-saw on the bit lightly and set a block. After we worked the arena for thirty minutes or so, Jewels fell into a nice low sweeping trot. She lifted her back and floated over the floor. It felt very light and effortless. There was no bounce at all. I was so proud of our accomplishments. I can’t wait until next week.