I remember clearly the first time I saw Jewels. One of the most beautiful horses I’ve ever laid my eyes on. She was stand offish. Huddled in a small corner of the corral. Ears were pricked forward. She was snorty and spinning around to move away from her intruders. While looking at the other horses for sale, my eyes kept gravitating back on this magnificent fireball. Finally stating “I want that one”. I should have walked away the moment the owner said she was more of a “cowboys horse, not for an older lady. She’s more than you can handle”. The wheels in my head started turning. As hard-headed as I am, I wasn’t going to let him tell me what I could and couldn’t handle. After all, in my mind, I had handled far worse animals than this and lived to tell about it.
What happens next wasn’t any surprise to those who know me well. I bought her and brought her home. She got the best of me in the beginning. Sometimes regretting, I may have bitten off more than I could chew. Jewels was fearful and full of energy. Snorting and pinning her ears, and letting me know this place wasn’t her idea of happiness. A spooky reactive animal who would run over the top of me if I wasn’t paying attention to her every detailed movement. In spite of it all, I saw something beyond the nasty little things she did. I knew there was more to her than what she projected. And I’ve found out more about myself through her eyes than I ever thought possible. I didn’t know then, she would become my own inner strength. After all, she’s just an animal.
We are both troubled with-in. Not knowing what her trouble is has given me the strength to fight my own demons. Having to learn patience. I’m learning how to be vulnerable and to give more than I take. Being able to show gratitude at the smallest of accomplishments. It’s like working a puzzle. Each small piece fits perfectly in its own place. A place that’s finally reachable for us both. It’s a place I want to be. A person who can see the best in others without being judgmental. I couldn’t have imagined in my wildest of dreams, Jewels would become my teacher. Jewels has been living with her own special demons, but with help of others, a little love and patience, she’s now found some sort of sanctuary in the presence of human companionship. She’s become a doughy-eyed creature. It’s unimaginable what my life would be without her now.
Today another piece of the puzzle fell in to place. She’s become powerful, and less fearful. Building her own confidence in me while working with Jerzey. And becoming quite the pest. An in your pocket sort of being. It’s the very thing I’ve been longing for. A trust that only grows with time. A place I know she wants to be. I believe “God” gave her to me to find out about my self. And anyone who doesn’t believe this hasn’t met Jewels. I hope you find your Jewel in life. You deserve it!